Cheating Myself

You will be in confusion

Or maybe you will wonder why?

How much I am irritated to you.

To say that you’re just there

And I’m right here

Makes me think why?

Why do chances never gave way

For us to be close?

Or Even good friends?

We’re just near and yet

I feel were mountains apart.

And when we cross way,

We’re more than strangers.

As the days slip away,

I found time to ask myself.

DOES HE LIKES ME?

I heard no answer.

We catched stares

And walked through the street

You never opened your lips to say something.

or even bother to ask anything.

There is something in you

Which is more than mystery.

I want to uncover it

And discover reality.

I don’t want to see you

But my eyes longed to see your smile.

I don’t want to hear your voice but I miss the way you laugh.

I really don’t understand what I feel.

I want to hate you

But you’ve done nothing wrong to me.

I want to dislike you

But when I hear people criticize you

I started to worry.

I know you don’t care for me.

But why do I feel this way?

Do I have the right?

There’s no intimate relationship between us

though I crave sometimes.

I know I’ll be a fool

To say that I hate you

Only to hide what I feel

And only to cheat myself.

For the only thing I know

Is because I’ve fallen in love with you …

But you will never know

For you don’t give a damn

And you don’t care at all !!!

by: jheng manalang prado

www.echoesbeyondmysoul.blogspot.com